I worry to much about little things

why the fuck is life so confusing?! i mean, just as i get over this guy who i thought i’d never hear from again, he texts me and my heart goes so crazy i feel sick. i missed him and i was lying to myself thinking i didnt.  i just dont know what to do im so fucking lost :\ 

i think im just looking for answers, and im sad cause im not getting any, and right now i dont think im ever going to get the answers im after. 

the more i talk to people about you, the more i like you, but the more i like you, the less i want to. but i do want to,  

but im scared. you’re not going to feel that way about me, 

i'm scared you’ll screw me over,

i’m scared that you already know and dont care, 

i’m scared that you’ve used me already, 

i’m scared to trust you,

i'm scared of getting hurt and i waste my 11:11 wishes on you.

I feel like a jig-saw puzzle missing a piece and I’m not even sure what the picture should be.

Some have a lifetime, some just a day. Love isn’t something you measure that way. Nothing’s ever forever. Forever is a lie. All we have is between hello and goodbye.

I know it just for summer. Worriying about you just a lil thing of all my problems. So, I shouldn't be. But I couldn't stand for this matter. I'm also worrying about many things,

Right now..

I really feel that I just want to disappear from this world right now! From all these problems, hurting, troubles, from EVERYFCKINGTHING! I just want to go somewhere and shout everything out! I just want to cry everything out. :(( I don’t want to talk to anyone! I don’t want anything! I just want peace of mind! Please!!! Take me somewhere free from all the problems here on earth. Even for just a day. PLEASE! :((